Totally frustrated with this new site. I can't check mail, or stay logged on to the site. I have tried adding every cookie variation, keeps asking for login and password. I have emailed admin 2 weeks ago. ruaddragun@gmail.com

Currently my focus is on Music and Faith. I am very big on Faith and Spirit being faithful. Even in the darkest times Spirit is there. Trials and tribulations make us stronger.

My mission is to raise the bar for myself. To continue and strive for greater things. I sincerely hope to help others Increase their own faith.

A particular aspect of this for me is LGBT issues. Often an individual who identifies. Can be left out in the cold. In many cases Family and Friends abandon when the truth comes out. Society does very little as a whole to support the freedom of expression. Some have no need for belief. I think that is ok. My desire is to be a part of liberation, not restrictions.

My desire is to see an end to pain and suffering. There is no need for Racism or Discrimination. War and Famine should be the old way. Violence and strife create unjust actions. Widows and Orphans are neglected. We should be a lot further than this.

My Solid Songs:

• Namaste - Written after really bad break up.
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• Hermes - Based on Emerald Tablet.
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• Figure Five - In dedication to a mentor of mine.
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• Standing in front of 32 mirrors - abuse, love, and spirit
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• Peace Be Still (work in progress)
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Red Dragon Free Press

This is my latest project. There are many talented people from my area on there. I hope to really beef it up over the next year.

I have had a very deep and personal devotion to myself this year. My focus has been on three important aspects. Physical, Mental and Spiritual health. This for me is a perfect fit. I have been to professionals in all three areas throughout the year. It has placed me in a more stable place.

Recently I discovered in meditation. When focused on an object with both the left and right brain. It produces the insight or sixth sense. This is the “third eye.” I plan on doing more meditation on this.

One pattern in my life that is very prevalent in LGBT lifestyle. It appears that there is a lot of violence and strife. Much of this is fueled by dysfunctional actions. Drinking in excess or doing drugs for self medication purposes. I have seen many a person who identifies with this lifestyle. Get rather upset when such a topic is discussed. Prevalent doesn't mean all, it just means that a majority tend to do it.

An aspect that I am particularly aware of is Male on Male violence. I tolerated quite a bit of it from others. Hoping that they would grow past their issues. Finding in most cases they would rather be drunk or high. I myself have used the same vices to self medicate the pain of not being accepted. It is a no win situation. Violence only hurts the ones you love. I haven't checked the statistics. But I am willing to bet that they are not accurate. I doubt that most men would report the event. I will never allow another person to inflict pain on me. From now on I will be the one to call the police, rather than my accusers who are violent.

If anyone ever gets violent with you. Please take care of yourself and seek safety immediatly! Don't allow the cycles of abuse to continue. You have the power to overcome it. As soon as you have gotten to a safe place. Report the incident to the authorities. Otherwise the one who is abusing you may end up reporting you as the abuser. This is not good, to be twice victimized. Stand up and say enough! Don't let anyone have power over your body. Reject it as soon as you can. Otherwise you will end up a slave to the relationship.

I think we are way to hard on ourselves. We can be our own worst enemies. The reality is the one to fear is within. We have so much potential individually. Yet often we use that potential to beat ourselves down. To often we don't see who we really are. Generally it is the result of core beliefs. Usually these beliefs are romanticized. We think we are a bad person, because we did this or that. When the truth of the matter is. Only an action can be deemed bad. Not the individual. One can break the self discrimination, through patience and proper analyzing of a behavior. Ask yourself from time to time if your core value is a realistic one. Quite possibly you may find that those core values are skewed and need adjustment.